lifeisintrospective

I suppose that I should be happy to have finished another year of school, right? But, I'm not. I can't say that I'm sad or anything, its just that happy isn't the word to describe my mood by far. I have a lot going for me, so I'm grateful for each of my opportunities, yet sad events have really overshadowed them. Two friends almost dead and another grieving makes me feel as if its wrong for me to be happy while they are suffering. I don't even feel like myself anymore, really. Its almost as if I'm in a body that's not my own, and I have no idea what to do with it. I just don't know if I can pull everything back together again this time.

I've finally made it out of school. To be honest, I never thought that I'd actually make it out of my freshman year. I practically sprinted out of school yesterday. It was all going great until today though. I found out that one of my favorite FMX riders, Eigo Sato, passed away. He was injured during a fall. He died at the hospital. This actually happened about a month ago, but I hadn't really been keeping up with the entire MX scene since I had finals and such to study for. Eigo was not only really great rider, but an amazing person. I believe that everybody who knows his name respects him and his love for riding. I know that there will neve

Break has been okay so far. Not the best, but at least I have one and a family to spend it with, you know? I guess that I sort of enjoyed the alone time that I had. I like to be by myself. I gives me time to think and sort things out in my mind. I also got some time to read some manga. It made me remember how I first got so interested. One work in particular sparked my interest though. Kaijuu no Kodomo by Daisuke Igarashi. He's really a genius with the way that he writes. At first, the story is slow, but I provides a great foundation for the actual plot of the story. His illustrations are amazing. I really can't explain without going on a tan